I am Calvin. My last name is Terlizzi and is pronounced like ter-lit-zee. But that's not very important so let me move on... I create blog posts, tweets, YouTube videos and Kindle eBooks. I am based in the American Southwest and am originally from a small town in Southern Illinois. Since a very young age, I had an intense fear of death. I was absolutely miserable as a teenager and even for a time had lost my grip on reality. I abused alcohol to cope with the pain. Ultimately all the suffering I went through as a teenager led me to go deep into the spiritual realm. And this is actually something I do not talk about very often. I don't like to mention that I believe in God and meditation because so many people don't believe the spiritual realm. That is okay to me but please allow me to go on... When I was 20-years-old I had an NBE (no-body experience - a term I coined meaning that the body has no existence and that suffering is an illusion). This experience was a realization. It lasted about 3 months. A few years later (my mid to late 20's) I started writing a lot about my experience with depression and my spiritual (NBE) experience. I published several Kindle books regarding the aforementioned topics, I talked a lot about depression on YouTube (for the most part I avoided talking about religion and God on YouTube - so many people do not like discussing that topic). Around age 30 I gave up reading spiritual books and focused more on books in the field of self-development. I also started watching a lot of YouTube videos by success-coaches and motivational speakers. Their words helped me. I gave up the search for God after so many years because ultimately this is something we must all do. We need to stop searching. To seek is to struggle. Enlightenment and union with God are the opposite of struggle. Do you see how the search is self-contradictory? My homepage (CalvinTerlizzi.com), my blog (CulturedMonk.com) and my YouTube Channel revolve around self-development. That is what I would like to think of myself as - a success coach.